I'm Not Sure

 


I'm Not Sure


I was in 7th grade when I learned about the theory that we humans, originated from particular mammals. My mind took that uncertain but possible information seriously, beginning to doubt what my prior faith taught me to believe. After a long time, I eventually came to a conclusion; omniscient beings are not real.


I don't believe in supernatural beings. I don't consider the religion that my parents made me accept when I was a child. Without visible proof, I cannot wholly believe in Gods. How can I? Who would even believe in something they cannot see? 


Yes, what I think is possibly the source of our origin, and even the start of everything are unproved concepts of the real beginning. But isn't the origin of beliefs for a deity is also a theory? Scientific theories have questions that still have no answer to, and neither does religion. And ever since I encountered that realization, I felt confused.


Change my mind, please. I don't even know what to believe. Should I start believing in an unseen being again? I don't want to get my hopes up. Maybe I should just stick to what has plausible possibilities? But it's also uncertain. Which one should I pick? 


I can't be convinced to believe the statement: "You don't have to understand, He moves in mysterious ways." Mysteries are meant to be solved. Unless an assumption is proven to be factual, I cannot conclude anything. 


Are we really alone in this place? I'm not sure. I'm really scared of the dark.


-Richelle Mae Escarlan

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