My Favorite Mistake

 

My Favorite Mistake


As I grew older, I started to notice that I have a bit of a sloth-like functionality about me. I move slowly, I barely do anything productive, and I genuinely enjoy just sitting or lying around without doing much of anything. But don't take me out of context; I still do my responsibilities, tasks, and house chores.

When there are some things that I have to do and should do, I'll often say, "I'll do it tomorrow." I don't think there's something wrong here if you have good excuses and you'll actually do it tomorrow. But for me, it's not the case. I have many inexcusable excuses, and I genuinely won't do it tomorrow. Instead, I'll say "I'll do it tomorrow" again. 

I find it physically and mentally impossible to complete a task today if I can do it tomorrow. So when I get a task on a Monday that's due by Friday, I tend to do it on the day I can't push it off any longer with an "I'll do it tomorrow." What happens if there's no deadline? I might not even be able to get it done, or it will take a month, a year, or even over 3 years just to start doing it.

The results? I am flopping on many areas of life, particularly in personal development and academics. I attend classes without preparation, and I take high-stakes quizzes and exams with minimal study; in fact, I even complete my reports just an hour before the actual presentation. But I definitely put in the effort; I really tried my best with those. In this blog post, for example, I made an effort in my choice of words and editing the thumbnail post. But I was supposed to do it yesterday.

Don't get me wrong, I am ashamed of this, a 19-year-old who struggles to do even the most basic tasks. I am trying to find solutions to resolve this. Well, guess what? I never found solutions because that "tomorrow" never comes. I get that for some people, this is a piece of cake; I know some people who actually do tasks as soon as they are given to them, people that actually do it tomorrow.

Perhaps it has something to do with self-discipline? Or is it simply a trait that I've allowed to develop within me? Is it purely laziness? Or is it because of the influence of variety of factors?

Oh well.

I guess I'll just find the answer to that tomorrow.


- Zamwel Damasco


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